淡淡的恋爱

或许是我想太多了，总觉得咱们俩都变了。从沙巴回来以后一切都很顺利，也没什么变到，惟有感情变得淡淡地。很不习惯现在的状况，好像缺乏了些生活的乐趣。毕竟在一起也快七年了，她的唠叨、她的烦躁、她的任性都仿佛霸占了我生命的一部分，一切都习惯了。现在没了反而很不自在，好像怪怪地。

现在的她不再唠叨了，、也不再死缠烂打了、从此也不再烦我了。现在她有自己的生活了。以前的她听到我一回来就会马上要来见我，因为大家都很想念彼此。可现在就没这一回事了，反而她会说她要陪她的朋友然后迟些才见我。听了固然会有一点心酸，仿佛全世界都在黑暗当中惟有一盏灯在亮着我儿艺的那一种感觉。但就在这一刻看见了以前的我，她就有如我的镜子把我给照醒。

生日的时候她有买礼物给我，之前也收到不少她送我的礼物，差不多每一样都很昂贵。很开心，我都很喜爱，可是同时也觉得很怪，有少少的内疚，因为自己不曾送她这么多有这么昂贵的礼物给她。自己矛盾了许久之后终于鼓起勇气问他为何送这么多有这么贵的礼物给我，而她的答案竟然是：“为了维持我们之间的感情”。这一句话如果给旁人听到固然没什么事，而且还很浪漫。可是这一句话的里头有很多含义，只有我才能够感受到这句话的内容。我太失败了，我很无能，我给不到她最好的，也很对不起她因为为了我成为她朋友的笑柄。对不起，我的无能让你很无奈，我的失败我也很无奈。

现在大家都还彼此自由了，我唯有默默接受，没有资格反抗，毕竟没有说服力。

no. 25's kitchen

08 Nov 2008 , Saturday

Just went for Quantum of Solace the day before. Quite a tired day for me because i'm a lazy human. I have totally chill out after finished 3 final exam paper and i know it's time for me to socialise with my friends. LOL !!! I was very exited and we planned to have chicken chop for our dinner. Chung Vi and I went to Lido's market to get some raw material such as deboned drumstick, garlic, lemon, potatoes(3.5 kg), cabbage, and blar blar blar... Actually i was late and Chung Vi have to wait for me due to some technical mistake (emm...it is not nice to mention the reason but actually it is alarm clock failure). HEHE, i'm so sorry. I started to clean the drumstick just after i reach home then season with lemon, soya sauce, oregano, and olive oil. Hai Yew help me to grate cabbage and carrot for coleslaw. The coleslaw eventually oooppss... became 'mudlaw' or 'mashlaw' because grated too finely. HAHA ... but still eatable. Chung Vi, Jun Hui and Khai Long prepare for mash potato. Last but not least, i prepare for mushroom soup and mash potato gravy(pepper flavour). Luckily they help me out, otherwise we will have to start our dinner at 9:00 p.m .

Our gang include ,from left Chung Vi, Min San, Khai Long, Kenny Loon, Jason Fatt, Hai Yew, Elvin(me), Hoong Wei, & Jun Hui


Grilled Lemon Chicken chop


mashed potato


Pepper sauce


coleslaw or maybe 'mashlaw'


mushroom soup


garlic butter coated bread


Completed dish

Finally we complete our cooking just in time and start eating at 8:00 p.m. I don't bother whether it is delicious or not but i really enjoy the process. It is a meaningful day for me altough it is quite tiring day. CHEERS !!!